Desire Love

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

Desire is a huntress

Sleek in full-bodied pursuit

Cold-scaled and sinuous

Striking open-mouthed, lock-jawed

Desperate and bold

A silent background calculation

She follows pleasure like a leaf riding a river

Like a raptor diving for a rabbit

An old horse heading for home

Awake until she tangles in her target

Or drops, throttled by exhaustion or rage

Sleeps, quiet as the dead

With her long-nailed hand on your thigh

She follows you through your dreams

Shape-shifting and duck-diving

Emerges in the quiet fog of pre-caffeinated first light

Matches her footsteps to yours,

Waiting to overtake you in some new game

 

 

 

 

Love is a different woman

No-one really remembers her face

She is simply there. No conditions, no predeterminations

No limit to what she can lift

With her community of hydraulics

No false pretenses, no lists of laws

Just her rolled sleeves and flour-dusted hands

Worn as a sun-warmed rock and wrinkled

With the cares she has taken from your own back

And bakes them into bliss

She watches eternity with her eyes on your face,

Her heart beating in your fist

She waits for you to pause in your terror and lust,

To turn towards her and see

Hold her steady gaze

She breathes in your sorrow and exhales hope

Carries you to your friends and calls you by your true name

Walks through the darkened house with her matches

Starts a fire in the old stove

With wood you thought was too damp to burn.

20160407_165101

fitzroy-falls.jpgA living stream, he said

Will burst forth

Like sap-flow

Blood for you

This resin making clean

Pure-burning, resonating

An ember glow

That will not die

This love I have for you.

 

 

The soft wool sky

Warm honey skin

Smooth-armed encircling

Deep water of eyes

Soul-safe harbour

Kept from trespass

Sweet in step

Known beyond words,

The truth of you

The sound perpetual

Triumph of angel-war and everyday

A great submission

Flee fear,

Unneeded here

The dissolving haze

Our sun-seeking gaze.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Diminishing Returns

Starving for space

The ache opens up

The paths the light takes

Through the grey,

Clothed in white

 

I am ready with my lamp

To rip out the wick and pour oil

Onto your flames

Watch them dining on the dark

 

I starve for silence,

The cacophony of climax

When sun swallows night

 

Watching for cracks on the horizon

My pulse dips

The balance slips

Hunger yawns like a lion declaring territory

But this time I will wear it’s skin

 

Still I am only a silo,

Waiting for the swell when the emptiness ruptures

Praying for good reign.

Traverse

Audio version

This sheep is a solitary beast.

She likes to wander the blackthorn thickets,

The mugga woodlands

The fragrant, prickly heath

Over shale foothills and sandstone crests

Into gullies made by downcutting

Living water laps the dreaming of old seas

She worms through wallaby tunnels and borrows the footpads of errant goats

Sniffs out the shaded meadows of sweet weeping grass

She goes out, she comes back to her haunts and finds pasture

Drinks from the river and listens to the news of the birds

She knows some of the others are concerned

Think she will stumble into a ravine and end there,

Tangled pitifully in blackberry

And on the way she will starve,

Or choke dead on poisonwood peach

Or forget herself and think she’s a fox

Or worse, be torn apart by dogs

She knows that some of the others don’t understand

They think she avoids them out of spite

In truth, the flocks just make her tired

In the paddocks the hay is delicious but far too rich,

To simple and too same

She doesn’t want to grow old and lazy

Walking over the same ground until it becomes dust

Blindly trampling the murnong out of the earth

In truth, she wishes she were a better sheep

That she could take up less room and be gentler,

Less excitable

In truth, she fears as much as she loves the shepherd

Down in the gorge she hears his voice

Echoes of melody through the canyon;

The wingbeats of startled ducks herald his coming

She has not forgotten

How he held her to him when she was a lamb

Or the quick pinch of the tag that pierced her ear,

Marking her as his

She knows that all of this land belongs to him,

That she can never wander far enough to leave it

She knows he has not forgotten her

Knows that wandering makes her hardy

She drinks deeply from the secret creeks

And tells other wild sheep

They are of the one flock.

Indirect Sowing

I loved a man

Who was more than

I thought I loved

 

I ran

 

back to Onan’s bed

of spilled seeds shallow dying

amongst the rocks and thorns

 

I woke twice

Once to trumpets and a thundering glory

A command:

Sing your way through fear

Once to whispered insistence:

All will be well. Stay on your path

 

I shook to the ground and through hell

became demon.

 

Many moons ago

The curse wore off

A man

Less in the eyes of others

was love, for me

 

Even on the rocks

seeds swell with desert dew

breaking hardpan with their wanting

And weeds will feed us as well as wheat

If all are cast as brothers.

Drafts

Life is

A series of drafts

Sketched from whistling winds of thought

Pushed at, pulled by the Spirit

Into, out of shape; taught

Some new form, devised for Your pleasure

And our endless leisure. A novel rhythm singing

The circle of our mind’s eye

Back to the beginning

Swinging in from brink and margin, making

A pilgrimage of progress,

An ingress of steps sublime

Climbing slowly towards

Fear of delight and longing,

Satiation out of anguish at last;

Languishing no more

You are perfect:

A meet, tripartite symphony

The complete and final score.

2 Corinthians 3:3

 

A mystery, this convergence.

All our lives, storylines entwined

Strands waving in an unseen wind

Our hands, the visible marks

Of invisible God

Triplicate,

Singular

Author of this epic; bold, unfurling

True tale of complexity,

Fathomless as the dark

Your lines,

My lines

Words live and move

Become aligned

Giving voice to that ageless shout

From beyond sound itself,

Older than genesis itself.

 

 

 

Do you hear what I hear?

The echo from the other side;

Deep calling to deep

The force behind the yawn of waterfalls

The power that etches gullies and carves out caves

Unremitting

The soft,

Unhurried

Inexorable strength of water

The surge that catches us in the waves of His sea.

 

I am looking down into a valley

Of scattered sand and bleached bone

My arms have fallen, limp at my sides.

I see

We are all so sadly impotent.

Pained and pallid, in poor measure

Speechless before the joy of His pure, unclouded love

We ache before the starry brilliance of His skies,

Utterly empty while we are full of ourselves

Mouthing sounds without meaning,

Vague utterances to the deaf and the mute, unblinking stones

Yet somehow

Despite our loss,

Inescapable as the train of Himself

All that is sings with the light of the same explosive dawn:

Love.

 

 

The shadows are already fading

The world and all its cries becoming slowly breathless

Fixed in the eternal aurora of His flames

He will close down all meandering steps,

Igniting thorns and subduing fallen stars

And at the last, as always and in all things

TRIUMPHANT

He will sound a fulsome, mighty roar

A final call to quiet and to stir

To reawakening, all in accord now fused

Ringing in a sublime and ceaseless wash,

Circumspect with awe

Battleplots silenced

The inky seas tamed

And what we have begun to sketch here

In broken lead, with trite, unsteady hands

To be continued forever

Expanding into the completion of His grace.

Only He ever knows what will be next.

 

John 16:13

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA